This week I have to say, my faith was tested and bruised. I'm aware that life has a tendency to through you curveballs, and I've dealt with a few. But this week I faced a problem that I was absolutely helpless up against. I mean not that I didn't attempt to move into action, not like I didn't know the rules of engagement, or the "right people" to talk to to make things happen, but for whatever reason, it just didn't' seem to work. Not just in one area, but in multiple areas. Trying and Trying...with little to no progress. It would appear that this is a closed door. But I hear GOD saying..."strike again/ don't give up when you come up against opposition or experience rejection".
The word of GOD says in Hebrews 10:36 "You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised." HE reminds us in Galatians 6:9 "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
So why do I feel so defeated, beaten down, and hopeless??? Then I was reminded of the time when I was 14 and I was heading off to boarding school, during the time I lived in the basement bedroom of my parent's home. We had a bad rainstorm that caused our basement to flood. We were so devastated. My mother reminded me once that in that moment I said something to the effect "It's going to work out- don't be discouraged". Within about 3 weeks, a check arrived from FEMA, which was enough, to not only fix the problem, but to also replace the items damaged in the flood.
This past week I had to reflect on the goodness of God in the midst of "stormy" situations. Since August of this year I have been standing in faith for a permanent classroom teacher for my youngest child. Although we have been supporting her with modified homeschooling curriculum, the management of student behaviors within her class is something that can not be supported at home. Well, the "final straw broke" happened when I become aware that my kid has been the victim of bullying. There were all kinds of feelings but the main thought was, how can this too, be worked out for my good?
I resolved that God sees and knows all things, and even this, has not taken him by surprise. So I have to settle my emotions and trust in Him, to work out all the details of this situation, for the good of both my child and I. I'm anxiously awaiting what He will do, if He did it before then He can do it again.